Chapter 1I remember as a child how often I wanted to gather up my consciousness and rise right up out of my body. I didn’t want to be here, couldn’t understand the rules the grown ups played, and why I couldn’t just be me. “It’s because we love you – that we lock you up …
I had a bad dream last night and my Shadow Sister came to stay. She does that from time to time. Her siren call is a turbulent sky, the shock of bad news, or an unkind word from a friend – she loves them all. Moves right on in. ‘Shut the curtains, lock the door, …
The Sun said hello to me today, and warmed my heart with Love. He looked into my eyes and said ‘Let me tell you the story of how it all began’, and the world went dark. In the beginning of time God looked out into the void and saw only One, perfection. ‘How can I …
Today I am weary and overwhelmed. It doesn’t matter that I’ve been told that I wanted to be here, that I signed up for this. On days like these my desires are much simpler than that. On days like these I want the churning waters of my negative thoughts to be calm, to be still. …
I found my voice at the end of a pen,and I’m afraid of the words it has to say.I don’t understand the source that flows through them.I want to shoo them awaylike ducklings scattering from their mother’s sideas a bike zips by on the tow path. How do I know if what I sayhas any …
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to close your eyes and dissolve into everything and nothing, cell by cell, atom by atom. Have you ever wanted to feel yourself disappear unnoticed while silently observing bodies move from this quantum space to that. If I draw my eyelids down and go deep inside …
When did my life become a list of to-dos,of timesheets, contingencies,attempts to please yous.Don’t relax, check your exits, must stay on your guard.There might a test, a review, stiff report card,which shows where you’re slacking,behind, below par,a nuisance, incompetent, disruptive behaviour. Don’t rest for a minute or take time out for a drink.Don’t you dare …
People say that having children is like little pieces of your heart walking around with arms and legs.But hearts can be broken,and they want to climb too high, run too fast, don’t look out for cars, or strangersjust waiting to steal their innocence away. I took my piece and travelled around the world.Trying to find …
In the fairy tale, daddy bear meets mummy bear and they fall in love. They are young and successful and feel that together they have the strength of a thousand bears, daring to take on the world. They have adventures together, scout opportunities, succumb to the lure of money and success. Some time later bear …
Sometimes,my comfort zonefeels like a well worn straight jacketthat easesinto the crooks and bends of my bodylike an old friend.It glaresacross the no mans land of my smilescowlingat those who unknowingly trespasswith their untamed exuberanceand hot tearsand shouts of anger,unaware of the echoing antechamberthat conceals the spacewhereItrytohide. There, sits chaineda wild haired womandesperate to dance …