There is a new energy being birthed through me. I thought I was dying, and it felt like annihilation. An erasing of all I was meant to be and had planned to be. A slow and painful losing of myself into the melding forces of the changing world around me. I did what I thought …
Today I am weary and overwhelmed. It doesn’t matter that I’ve been told that I wanted to be here, that I signed up for this. On days like these my desires are much simpler than that. On days like these I want the churning waters of my negative thoughts to be calm, to be still. …
This is not how it’s supposed to be. I thought that ‘doing the work’, ‘ascending’, and ‘following the call of the Spirit’ was supposed to make life easier, lighter, more joyful and abundant. So where is it? Where’s nirvana? Where’s New Earth? Where’s my enlightened tribe? Why instead does my heart hurt. Why do I …
My desire is to soothe and heal the shock, trauma, and humiliation inflicted by the pain that drove me deep inside myself so that nobody could ever find me or hurt me again. My hope is to quieten my unrelenting ego that shows me images, and tells me things, so it can keep me dull …