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The Sun

The Sun said hello to me today, and warmed my heart with Love. He looked into my eyes and said ‘Let me tell you the story of how it all began’, and the world went dark. In the beginning of time God looked out into the void and saw only One, perfection. ‘How can I …

pigeons flying

Time To Go Home

Today I am weary and overwhelmed. It doesn’t matter that I’ve been told that I wanted to be here, that I signed up for this. On days like these my desires are much simpler than that. On days like these I want the churning waters of my negative thoughts to be calm, to be still. …

woman silhouette

My Voice

I found my voice at the end of a pen,and I’m afraid of the words it has to say.I don’t understand the source that flows through them.I want to shoo them awaylike ducklings scattering from their mother’s sideas a bike zips by on the tow path. How do I know if what I sayhas any …

woman under water

Oblivion

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to close your eyes and dissolve into everything and nothing, cell by cell, atom by atom. Have you ever wanted to feel yourself disappear unnoticed while silently observing bodies move from this quantum space to that. If I draw my eyelids down and go deep inside …

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Responsibility

When did my life become a list of to-dos,of timesheets, contingencies,attempts to please yous.Don’t relax, check your exits, must stay on your guard.There might a test, a review, stiff report card,which shows where you’re slacking,behind, below par,a nuisance, incompetent, disruptive behaviour. Don’t rest for a minute or take time out for a drink.Don’t you dare …

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Little pieces of my heart

People say that having children is like little pieces of your heart walking around with arms and legs.But hearts can be broken,and they want to climb too high, run too fast, don’t look out for cars, or strangersjust waiting to steal their innocence away. I took my piece and travelled around the world.Trying to find …

baby hands on adult palm

The Fairy Tale

In the fairy tale, daddy bear meets mummy bear and they fall in love. They are young and successful and feel that together they have the strength of a thousand bears, daring to take on the world. They have adventures together, scout opportunities, succumb to the lure of money and success. Some time later bear …

woman jumping in the air

Freedom

Sometimes,my comfort zonefeels like a well worn straight jacketthat easesinto the crooks and bends of my bodylike an old friend.It glaresacross the no mans land of my smilescowlingat those who unknowingly trespasswith their untamed exuberanceand hot tearsand shouts of anger,unaware of the echoing antechamberthat conceals the spacewhereItrytohide. There, sits chaineda wild haired womandesperate to dance …

fracturing heart with light

My Breaking Heart

This is not how it’s supposed to be. I thought that ‘doing the work’, ‘ascending’, and ‘following the call of the Spirit’ was supposed to make life easier, lighter, more joyful and abundant. So where is it? Where’s nirvana? Where’s New Earth? Where’s my enlightened tribe? Why instead does my heart hurt. Why do I …

flame

Keepers of the Flame

It feels like there is an ancient knowledge, an ancient language, an understanding of the world that is seeking to be expressed through me. And I wonder given all that I think I am (or not), why me. I used to ignore it, and ignore it, and ignore the whispers. But it wouldn’t go away, …